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in honor of the last day of school!!!!

[x] fell in love
[x] skipped class?
[x]DETENTION
[x] hugged someone in school?
[] started a rumor?
[x] gotten a iss/oss? (in school suspension, outside school suspension)
Total: 4

[x] cried in school
[x] wish you could take something back
[x] made new friends
[x] gone to a dance
[] watched a football game
Total: 4

[x] watched a soccer game
[] watched a baseball game
[] watched a volleyball game
[] watched a tennis match
[] watched a softball game
Total: 1

[ ] watched a track meet
[x] watched a basketball game
[x] stood up for someone being made fun of
[] broken up with someone in school
[x] fought with a teacher? not fist fight
[x] got kicked out of class
[x] got sent to the office for getting in trouble
Total: 5

[x]got a 100% on a test
[ ] walked to school
[x ] drove to school
[x] got dropped off at school
[x] heard a rumor about yourself
Total: 4

[ ] gone to school under the influence
[] had something illegal at school
[x] missed school when you weren't sick
[x] failed a test
[ x] failed a class
Total: 3

[x] made up some lame excuse for homework not being done
[x] the teacher believed your lame excuse
[] crushed on a teacher
[ ] hit on a teacher
[x] hated a teacher
Total: 3

[] on student council
[x] in a club
[] got a scholarship
[x] got an award
Total: 2

[x] fallen asleep in school
[] gotten in trouble for falling asleep in class
[x] had your phone go off in class
[x] had your phone taken away?
[x] lied to a teacher?
Total: 4

[x] laughed so hard you cried in class
[] eaten lunch in the bathroom?
[] missed more than a week at once of school
[x] excited for summer?
[] taking summer school?
Total: 2

Grand Total: 32 which makes 64%

Add up your total and times it by 2.

life is finally starting to look up.


thank you liz, patrick, catie, bianca, ashlee, melanie, and everyone else who has helped me through all this tough shit, ill love you guys forever.

and catie, i hope things turn out ok.

love, gina

how about i hate the world. i hate my school. my cat is annoying. i hate everyone and everything that i used to love. i hate them with all my heart. and yes. i have been taking my medicine. but its not working anymore. im on 2 medications now. its still not working. i hate myself.

why cant i figure out whats wrong with me? why cant i figure out where i belong in this world. i just feel like screaming. telling people EXACTLY how i feel about each and everyone of them. everyone. even if you think we are friends, we probably arent. its just a facade i have built over the year. fuck it. school is over after tomorrow, and i dont have to deal with any of this shit anymore. not over the summer. i hate you. and you. and you.

why am i so angry? whyyyyyy???? and why wont it go away??? its so fucking frusterating, my anger is so great, im crying. i feel totally helpless and confused. and hurt. yes. worst of all, extremely hurt. i mean, i have always felt like this underneath, but my medicine used to numb it. now its like defective or something. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!




whatever. all of you will be glad to know u will probly never see me again after tuesday.

its 3 in the morning. i have the wierdest sleeping patterns on the fucking plannet. i really dont know how to fall asleep and then stay asleep until morning.. either that or i just dont wake up in the morning. ugh i dunno. theres something wrong with me, but no one can figure it out.

school was good. mass sucked. when we went up to get the little bread, my row went to mr greenwood. when he asked if i wanted to recieve the body of christ, i shook my head rather ferociously with a disgusted gaggy look on my face and ran away. haha i knew i wouldnt be able to last that long in a catholic school. i cant wait till im back in public where i belong. no more icky itchy uniforms that make me look fat. and no more stuck up snobs. and only a few asshole teachers. and hey, i can get the peircings i wanna get now!

this saturday i have to get up early to go to work. my shift starts at 7. wahooo. but tomorrow i get my paycheck for last week, and i worked a good amount. too bad its all going to my parents.

I still need to get my nails filled reallly bad. they are starting to look super retarded. I also need to get my semi dress. yea.

i pretty much have nothing else to say. im gunna go watch a movie or something.

i love jared. sooo soo so so soo much.


thats all.

rachel mcadams is my idol.


im probly gunna be fired.


i hate church theatre.


im tired of alot of things.

im so upset right now you dont even know. why is the world so cruel?? why is God so cruel? why are we put on this planet anyway if after every good moment my spend here, there are atleast 5 horrible moments to remember as well. why bother living anymore, when all you really live for is love, and in the end.... all love really does is hurt you?


im so scared of living.

so i took the permit test....




and i PASSED!!!!! i only got one question wrong. and my mom let me drive out to bj's to get a new cell phone. (v cast might i add) oh my gosh, today was amazing. ask me in school if you want my new phone number, and leave a comment and tell me if you have verizon, we can talk for free! <33

1. ok, i deffinatly miss you. New years eve was incredible, i gotta say, i love those ouiji boards. at first you didnt like me, but i hope you genuinley changed your mind. love you!

2. ok bitch. you pretty much ruined my year at holy name. you think you are gods gift to the world, and you suck. im not gunna lie, you are talented, but you need to step aside and give other people a chance. you arent gunna go anywhere with the aditude that you are better than everybody else. because of you, i cant be in chorus anymore! my favorite part of school was taken away from me!!! how could you be so heartless? why did you hate me so much from the begining? i tried and tried to get along with you, but there was something always hidden behind that fake smile that i could sense. yea, i pretty much hate you.

3. hey you! poopy. thats you. yep. i love you more than any boy i have ever known. you are my world, and you keep me happy and smiling all the time. unless other girls right their PHONE NUMBERS ON YOUR HAND. but thats ok, because i trust you, and i love you. i love your smile, and your dumb jokes, and your family. i hope we stay together for a long long time. by the way, babe, you need to realize that you ARE talented, and you ARE smart. taking notes in math would help haha. i love you baby <3

4. we were best friends once upon a time. then we faught. then we made up. but we still arent as good as new. i hope we will be someday, but i doubt that would happen. i hope we can always stay in touch and hang out, even after i transfer schools. you have pretty eyes. the end.

5. you loser. you broke my heart. but then again, you did me a huge favor without even realizing it. i didnt realize it either for a while. but i guess everything happens for a reason. you played a pretty significant part of my life so far, and i hope you never forget me. dont ever forget how we were. i hope you have an excellent time at college, even though i probly will never fully forgive you. so how about these for a memory ringer: friendlys waffle fries, tgif, booth summer theatre, halloween, amandas sweet 16, "STOP PLAYING THE PIANO" cheez-its, ice cream in maine, oh gosh, soooo many.

6.you are pretty much my bestest friend. we share alot of the same interests and i have soo much fun when we hang out. you and i have discovered alot together, and i love trader joes food. spending a week with you was amazing, i hope my parents can go away more often. ps you dont deserve what people are doing to you. ughhhh. love you<3

7. your a fuckhead with weird eyebrows. you are turning into a whore, and all you care about are guys. and when yet another relationship ends over your clingy ness... you go back to your friends who you blatantly deserted in the first place. your such an ugly bitch, you really need to back off other peoples men. and treat people, especially your "friends" with some fucking respect. do you recall the golden rule from 2nd grade?

8. hey love. your my hero. i dont know what i would do without someone like you to lean on. you are always there for me, and i try to always be there for you. i love you with all my heart. i really hope this problem you have right now blows over. guys are scum, dont ever forget it. you are beautiful, and any guy is fucking retarded not to like you. you are funny, smart, and crazy, and i would kill to be you. dont ever forget that people love you, ok? you have got so much to live for, dont waste your energy on stupid people. (i know i know, easier said than done. first hand experiance here! lol) i love you hunny.

9. oh gosh . what to sayyyy. you and i have clearly been on the front seat of a rollercoaster together for the past 3 years with the loops the turns- everything, you name it, and we just recently got off the ride. i realy do love you, and i will always care about you. i hope we never lose touch. we have gone through so much, and we were soooo close. it tares me apart knowing that we went our seperate ways, but i hope you know i will always love you. be careful.

10.please leave me alone. leave everyone a loneeee. you are a stalker stalker stalker!!! your just weird. you dont know what you want, your mind is always in some sort of jumble. its strange how you think. i mean, you are obviously a good person, otherwise i wouldnt talk to you. but i think you need to think about what you say and do before you do it. and please stop trying to flirt with me... not only just cuz i have a boyfriend, also because i dont llike you. NOTHING WILL EVER HAPPEN BETWEEN US. EVER. besides, i love my baby. and i tell you that all the time. do you listen? NOOOOOO. oh gosh. yea. you are wierd.

the first day on the job went really well. im extremely beat though. im ready to go to bead and its only 8 o clock. working saturday 1-9 pm. come and see me! yup and thats about it. love always

-Gina


ps. whos excited for my party!

so i got a job at cvs. =) yay. i start tomorrow at 4. and wednesday i will be getting my permit, and thursday i will be getting my cellphone. next saturday is my sweet 16 and ill be handing out invitations tomorrow.

---love, Gina <3

huh. i love jared. you dont even know. i love my mom. my dog bit my face and i hate her. i miss bianca. im having trouble keeping my eyes open. i hate my older sister... what else is knew. i filled out at least a million job applications between yesterday and today.

good night.

its my birthday!!

my semi dress! ahhh omg im sooooo super excited. YAY.

The wizard of oz is all over. i have to say, practices were brutal. and the hours were long. but i miss my friends :-(

too. many. performances.






must. die. now.

seeing a scary movie tonight with my lovely bianca, and my lovely jared... other people too probly. then cold stones. tomorrow i have to work on a project :-( atleast its just a play. anwaysss... isnt life funny? arent people funny? you never really know who genuinely likes you and who dusnt. you never ever ever know. i mean think about it, how many people are you nice to every day, just because you feel bad? or because u dont want to get on their bad side? or just because your friends are friends with them and you dont need added drama to your life. haha i love it. life is fake.

the end

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things. Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life. You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation. You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon. Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall. You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others. At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults. Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion. A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have high extroversion. You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends. You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation. Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!" Conscientiousness: You have low conscientiousness. Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously. Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions. Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done. Agreeableness: You have medium agreeableness. You're generally a friendly and trusting person. But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism. You get along well with others, as long as they play fair. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism. You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic. Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy. Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is medium. You are generally broad minded when it come to new things. But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it. You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

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